i need acknowledgement

i'm a nobody. putting myself into such a dire and pathetic situation. i'm tired of it. all i need is acknowledgement from you all as a friend. Don't ignore me. it's not me being "xiao qi" out of the blues. but i really dont see that i'm being cherished in our friendship. those whatever things you all are telling me were simply some lame excuses. why made me into such a stupid fool? does my existence really means nothing? oh god, i am really hurt this time. after all, i get nothing from you all, not even some acknowledgement.

❤ fallin' for you ❤

I'm pretty sure this lyric looks familiar to all of you rite? it's "falling for you" by Colbie Cailat. this lyric explains everthing i'm going through now.

♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬
I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you...
♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬♪♬♪♪♬♬♬

ⓟⓡⓞⓜⓘⓈⓔ to be broken

please do always keep your promise and not breaking them. it dissappoints me. just because of this, it is enough to keep me agigated for no reason. it's not that i'm being unreasonable, but it is my principle of life. dad & mum agreed to go for a trip to taiwan. and i excitedly browsed through the newspaper articles hoping to get the best deal. but at last, it is cancelled after years of waiting! to worsen the situation mum said, " why do you need to follow the others? if your friend go you also must go?". to blow my last straw, even a trip to genting with my friends also seemed so impossible. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE just don't make EMPTY promise!!!!!! to many people i may seemed to be a polite, well-behaved lady but, definitely not when you're trying to provoke me. i'll blast.(p/s: it only happens infront of ppl whom knows me well)

am i expecting toooooo much???

for i'm always your darling daughter

i'm so grateful. grateful for being able to pass my professional 1 exam. i'm pretty sure that God did really heard my repetitively calls and He answered them. everything seemed to be in so much of a perfection when there is simply no stress that keeps pestering me. ( minus the weight gaining issue )





HOLIDAY is definitely a GREAT adventure! ranging from trip to penang, savouring mouth watering meals and shoppings. i got to admit that i had spent a little more than i usually do. but mummy just wouldn't resist saying NO when i'm so much into the item. Mummy & papa, i promise i'll study hard and smart to be a good doctor in the future. i will not dissapoint you all, for i'm always your darling daughter.

tear drops on lecture notes

tear drops on lecture notes. when am i going to finish the mountain of notes. the progress is barely even 25%. and it is only 15days more to PRO 1. i must pass this final exam. i'm so desperate to finish up d notes. how i wish my brain would work like a hard-disk. store and store and store. not deleted until it is do so. all i can do now is not to stress to enhance maximum memory and remain calm.

exam ! professional 1

i can't imagine that professional exam 1 is just 1 month away. the stress is there once again. i'm starting to have sleepless night. now that i do believe that stress will truly make one to fall sick. and i'm one of them. catching a mild fever, diarrhoea, soar throat and headache. i'm telling myself. " Jun, you only have one month to go. strive for it, STRIVE! show to everyone that all the effort that you had been putting on all the while are worthwhile. prove it to them that hard works pay off even when i do not have such a great brain like theirs. i might not be the greatest, but i could be the best! "

reasoning with myself

Finally I had knew the reason behind all these confusion. I guess it’s better for me to make a stop. Full stop. There wouldn’t be any progress if I were to persist my feeling on you. The opposition is not worthwhile for neither me nor you to go against for. But I really doubt if I can do that. perhaps the few months holiday where both you and I will not catch a sight of each other will lessen the "heavy" feeling of mine. perhaps everything will resume back to normal. a normal good friend.